"That is it"? What is this, your gotcha moment? Just bc it's your first time that means I can't feel fucked up about all of this?
I apologized for flirting with him, it was the only time it's happened so I'm actually glad it happened in front of you so you saw the literal EXTENT of it It was hard to just shake myself out of it all of a sudden, I'm like
( Breath shaking, tired of the drama involving the three of them, Jonas, not for the first time in his life, just pops. )
I wanted to be honest with you and you accused me of never talking to Cain about this stuff, so what was I supposed to do??? Not say anything????? Or be like "Yeah Noctis we actually don't ever talk about anything, you two are the only ones amazing enough to always talk about everything ever even though you treat it like a competition" That sounds super healthy Guess what I like to do?? Not force people into answering things constantly when they're clearly uncomfortable and trying to GET comfortable
Please PLEASE stop acting like you're some martyr middleman when no one asked you to be that He made his choice and so did I, but somehow I'm the one complicating it all by myself when you're the one trying to make sure we're all alright moving forward?? I made a single mistake And yeah I like you and I liked him, I still like him, and I can't get rid of that feeling so fucking quickly lmfao But I'm trying really REALLY hard to because I want to be with you So can you cut me some damn slack here???
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What is this, your gotcha moment?
Just bc it's your first time that means I can't feel fucked up about all of this?
I apologized for flirting with him, it was the only time it's happened so I'm actually glad it happened in front of you so you saw the literal EXTENT of it
It was hard to just shake myself out of it all of a sudden, I'm like
( Breath shaking, tired of the drama involving the three of them, Jonas, not for the first time in his life, just pops. )
I wanted to be honest with you and you accused me of never talking to Cain about this stuff, so what was I supposed to do???
Not say anything?????
Or be like "Yeah Noctis we actually don't ever talk about anything, you two are the only ones amazing enough to always talk about everything ever even though you treat it like a competition"
That sounds super healthy
Guess what I like to do??
Not force people into answering things constantly when they're clearly uncomfortable and trying to GET comfortable
Please PLEASE stop acting like you're some martyr middleman when no one asked you to be that
He made his choice and so did I, but somehow I'm the one complicating it all by myself when you're the one trying to make sure we're all alright moving forward??
I made a single mistake
And yeah I like you and I liked him, I still like him, and I can't get rid of that feeling so fucking quickly lmfao
But I'm trying really REALLY hard to because I want to be with you
So can you cut me some damn slack here???