[ Some of those words make him so angry. Some of them cut at him exactly the wrong way and genuinely hurt him. Some make him embittered.
The strongest impression, however, comes at the very end, where a strong desire he empathizes with makes him want to sit down with Jonas and lament just how unfair this is. They love each other, and they're yelling at each other like complete jackasses. And fucking... fucking Cain–
Why ask about him? Because he admitted to Jonas that he kissed him back? Jonas doesn't know about the quiet conversations they've had or the late night chats. He doesn't know that when Noctis says they're "doing better" it actually means things have changed between them completely. That the "forcing" and the "competition" have been discussed and worked on by both of them. And even with all that, he still thinks to ask?
What's he been showing? Has Cain said something?
And now Jonas wants him to sit quietly and just accept that shitty message. This is such bullshit. ]
Do that then
I'm heading out for a while
"well, while i'm already fucking things up, i might as well text cain!" goes to do that
He regrets being so dismissive of Noctis, because now it's going to be damn near impossible to find him to apologize. To make any of this right. And it feels like he's lost something crucial he won't ever get back.
How will this wind up in the end? When they're all done talking and they have to make one final decision?
Will any of them be happy?
It's hard to imagine now, as he wipes at his eyes, trying to calm his breathing. )
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The strongest impression, however, comes at the very end, where a strong desire he empathizes with makes him want to sit down with Jonas and lament just how unfair this is. They love each other, and they're yelling at each other like complete jackasses. And fucking... fucking Cain–
Why ask about him? Because he admitted to Jonas that he kissed him back? Jonas doesn't know about the quiet conversations they've had or the late night chats. He doesn't know that when Noctis says they're "doing better" it actually means things have changed between them completely. That the "forcing" and the "competition" have been discussed and worked on by both of them. And even with all that, he still thinks to ask?
What's he been showing? Has Cain said something?
And now Jonas wants him to sit quietly and just accept that shitty message. This is such bullshit. ]
Do that then
I'm heading out for a while
"well, while i'm already fucking things up, i might as well text cain!" goes to do that
He regrets being so dismissive of Noctis, because now it's going to be damn near impossible to find him to apologize. To make any of this right. And it feels like he's lost something crucial he won't ever get back.
How will this wind up in the end? When they're all done talking and they have to make one final decision?
Will any of them be happy?
It's hard to imagine now, as he wipes at his eyes, trying to calm his breathing. )