[His mom. Cain wants to ask more β but is it really the right time, the right conversation? Not when he feels like this, crushing pressure in his chest and a lingering sense of loss.]
you're pretty incredible yourself you know that? i don't think i ever said it
( It's all exactly what he wanted to hear for so long, and from anyone.
Calling him incredible... Saying he's lucky to have met him... Cain isn't helping the rising feeling in his chest. He knows what it isβan urgency to see himβbut how inappropriate would that be right now? When Noctis is relying on him to wait, and in a way, so is Cain.
He presses the back of his hand to his face, wiping at hot tears.
[Seeing Jonas express that in words, he wonders wildly β why can't he just go see him? Don't they both want it? Then there should be nothing wrong with acting on this mutual desire to find each other, to take Jonas into his arms and say all the things he's held back up to this point.
But he knows why he can't. It isn't even that he sees Noctis as an obstacle, because that would be diminishing the impact Noctis has had on both of them.
Remembering their last conversation, Cain makes an effort. He doesn't want to stop talking to Jonas.]
yeah i know i feel the same
hey, can you tell me about your mom? if you want to
( Jonas notices. He wouldn't have, maybe, if it'd been any other subject. His school days, his superficial friendships, his keen interest in theft. Even his dad, or the other more distant family members.
The fact that Cain asks about his mom changes something.
If Cain wants to get to know her, then he's more than allowed to get to know her son. )
The ring on my necklace is hers Dad gave it to me when I got out of juvie She was always saying she'd give it to me when she passed away anyway but it doesn't fit any of my fingers so lol idk it's the most special thing I own
She was the best you would've really loved her Everyone did She was just kind Like actually kind That super rare kind where you just always wanted to be near her
Nobody's ever really been in my corner but her so like To hear that you guys help to keep me safe and stuff especially after I went through smth awful would really mean a lot to her
[The ring on a necklace. So cherished and special, it makes Cain want to see it, to admire it around Jonas' throat. But maybe he's missed that chance for good.
He can still hear about it, and imagine what kind of person Jonas' mother was.]
wish i could've met her. and i'm sorry that she's gone. what was her name again? noctis mentioned it once, but
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you're pretty incredible yourself
you know that?
i don't think i ever said it
[And if he did, then it wasn't said enough.]
i got lucky, meeting you
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Calling him incredible... Saying he's lucky to have met him... Cain isn't helping the rising feeling in his chest. He knows what it isβan urgency to see himβbut how inappropriate would that be right now? When Noctis is relying on him to wait, and in a way, so is Cain.
He presses the back of his hand to his face, wiping at hot tears.
I'm nothing special. )
When you say it I believe you so
Thanks
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ik that's a fucked up thing to say rn but I just wish you were here
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But he knows why he can't. It isn't even that he sees Noctis as an obstacle, because that would be diminishing the impact Noctis has had on both of them.
Remembering their last conversation, Cain makes an effort. He doesn't want to stop talking to Jonas.]
yeah
i know
i feel the same
hey, can you tell me about your mom?
if you want to
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The fact that Cain asks about his mom changes something.
If Cain wants to get to know her, then he's more than allowed to get to know her son. )
Mom?
Yeah I want to
She was my best friend
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Dad gave it to me when I got out of juvie
She was always saying she'd give it to me when she passed away anyway but it doesn't fit any of my fingers so lol
idk it's the most special thing I own
She was the best you would've really loved her
Everyone did
She was just kind
Like actually kind
That super rare kind where you just always wanted to be near her
3/3
Nobody's ever really been in my corner but her so like
To hear that you guys help to keep me safe and stuff especially after I went through smth awful would really mean a lot to her
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He can still hear about it, and imagine what kind of person Jonas' mother was.]
wish i could've met her.
and i'm sorry that she's gone.
what was her name again? noctis mentioned it once, but
[Well... a lot's happened.]
i wanna know it from you
i get it, though
my sister was my best friend too