(a confusing mix of feeling slides over him, the impression that's something amiss. what?
jonas knew sasuke had an impressive willpower, but his ability to keep himself from strong emotion is shocking. the absence of it makes him suspect something's there, only enigmatic enough to keep him quiet.)
ugh, that sucks. The bonds are really give and take, huh. It's been a really crazy experience. No regrets so far, but the adjustment period's pretty long. Even if it's like I've always had you in my head now, strange shit strikes sometimes and it reminds me we're still getting to know each other. That's the nice part, I think.
No, though, I don't try to feel less. I don't know how I'd go about doing that lol, so what you're getting is unfiltered Jonas Ward. Does it seem like I am? Muting myself, I mean?
I suppose it makes sense. Even with someone like Naruto there are things I don't yet know. Stiles still says something new to me almost daily to start another banal argument. I doubt we'll ever fully be able to predict one another, just as we can't predict ourselves. Particularly given our access to emotions people aren't meant to feel.
It doesn't mean I'm questioning you because I think you're actively trying to hide things. More that we might make decisions that cause us to avoid situations in which we could feel more.
I can admit to controlling my own emotions where I can. It's how things are for me.
Hahaha, yeah. That's so like you guys. tbh I don't even know how I'm feeling most of the time, sometimes it's like I'm on auto-pilot, but I'm usually pretty mellow unless I'm with people I don't really know or outta my comfort zone in general.
Things just happen as they happen. Guess I'm not a "master of my own fate" or whatever, even though I should get on that. Tired of getting pushed around everywhere.
But I get it. You and Itachi have had difficult lives, that just seems like a way to combat it or smth? I'm no expert obviously. Know that I understand and you can take your time letting things out/in.
Being able to retain your sense of calm isn't a flaw, that's a positive. You're right to identify apathy as a potential problem, but it sounds as if you're determined to see that change. Focus on my feelings long enough and it'll come naturally.
[ Was that a little teasing arrogance? Maybe. You can be reserved and forceful, Jonas. ]
An example might be avoiding talking about my family too much or purposefully looking away from things that make you think of home.
I know better than most how true that is LMAO, but being influenced by your feelings would be the easiest part of my day. I'm js.
(two can play at that game.)
And those are things you don't want me to resist doing bc of the bond? bc I like hearing about you and I like to think about my own family. So I don't know how I'd really go about stopping that anyway.
If it really really bothers you I'd like to know, though.
Really?? Huh, I never would've thought. idk why, I have no excuse for the surprise.
Why wouldn't I, tho?
(it confuses him more than it bothers him. in fact, it doesn't occur to him it might be a criticism at all.)
If I look unimpressive, I'll come off as unimpressive. It's like that where I'm from, anyway. People judge a lot on just looks, so ig it's deeply ingrained. Weird to actually think about it tho.
It's especially common with an older and more traditional style of dress. Perhaps some time I can show you. [ A pause. ] Or I could draw it for you.
You already have a good look about you. You can accessorize to accentuate your positive physical qualities, but you shouldn't let those thoughts consume you.
Now that you're so excited about it I realize the value in refusing you and holding my art hostage in case I need to convince you to do something in the future.
Don't use the small faces on me. This isn't salacious.
You have broad shoulders and well-defined, symmetrical features. Large eyes. Your hair is healthy and you're well-built; you're in shape and you have solid muscle tone. Your jaw is strong. You have white, straight teeth when you smile. You're also seemingly above average in height and have good bend in your knees.
this isβΒ wow. for a guy with a massive crush, sasuke's breakdown doesn't make it lessen that's for damn sure. jonas is sure his end of the bond is practically throbbing with the uptick in the rate his heart's pounding away at, face feeling hot. it's red, he knows it's red. he probably looks like a fucking tomato.
no one's ever complimented him this much in his life, so how does he even begin to respond?)
Sorry. This is really nice to read, I mean it. I just didn't know you thought all this about me, so it's def a confidence booster. Lol. u sure the fact that I have a good bend in my knees isn't salacious??
He feels a spike of what to him reads as anxiety through the Bond, eyes narrowing down at the text β is he embarrassed? Flattered? That's understandable enough though it makes him wonder if he hasn't crossed a line in his attempt to both be honest and to make Jonas feel a bit more self-confident. ]
I didn't say a number and you shouldn't want me to. Focus on the positives and on the negatives that you can fix.
Do you feel better now about wearing socks with sandals?
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jonas knew sasuke had an impressive willpower, but his ability to keep himself from strong emotion is shocking. the absence of it makes him suspect something's there, only enigmatic enough to keep him quiet.)
ugh, that sucks. The bonds are really give and take, huh. It's been a really crazy experience. No regrets so far, but the adjustment period's pretty long. Even if it's like I've always had you in my head now, strange shit strikes sometimes and it reminds me we're still getting to know each other. That's the nice part, I think.
No, though, I don't try to feel less. I don't know how I'd go about doing that lol, so what you're getting is unfiltered Jonas Ward. Does it seem like I am? Muting myself, I mean?
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It doesn't mean I'm questioning you because I think you're actively trying to hide things. More that we might make decisions that cause us to avoid situations in which we could feel more.
I can admit to controlling my own emotions where I can. It's how things are for me.
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Things just happen as they happen. Guess I'm not a "master of my own fate" or whatever, even though I should get on that. Tired of getting pushed around everywhere.
But I get it. You and Itachi have had difficult lives, that just seems like a way to combat it or smth? I'm no expert obviously. Know that I understand and you can take your time letting things out/in.
What situations do you mean, though?
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[ Was that a little teasing arrogance? Maybe. You can be reserved and forceful, Jonas. ]
An example might be avoiding talking about my family too much or purposefully looking away from things that make you think of home.
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(two can play at that game.)
And those are things you don't want me to resist doing bc of the bond? bc I like hearing about you and I like to think about my own family. So I don't know how I'd really go about stopping that anyway.
If it really really bothers you I'd like to know, though.
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[ Look, self-deprecating Gen Z humor is suiting him fine. ]
I don't want you to hold back at all if you don't wish to. That's all that it means. If you aren't restricting yourself, I'm at ease with it.
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LOL nice
I'm definitely not, so rest assured. If it does come up just lmk and I'll figure out a way for us both to get what we want. Cool?
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Very well. In that case there's nothing else that I needed to ask.
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Then we have exhausted our list of things to discuss forever and our business is concluded. Blah blah blah
I've got smth we can talk about. Do you think wearing socks with sandals is weird or kinda chill?
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bc it's really comfy. And I'm debating getting some sandals for summer.
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[ Although he is 100% not picturing what Jonas is attempting to describe. ]
You care if people find you unimpressive? Still? [ Okay that sounds harsher than he meant. ]
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Why wouldn't I, tho?
(it confuses him more than it bothers him. in fact, it doesn't occur to him it might be a criticism at all.)
If I look unimpressive, I'll come off as unimpressive. It's like that where I'm from, anyway. People judge a lot on just looks, so ig it's deeply ingrained. Weird to actually think about it tho.
I just wanna look good.
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You already have a good look about you. You can accessorize to accentuate your positive physical qualities, but you shouldn't let those thoughts consume you.
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PS what "positive physical qualities" would you say that I have? Define "good look". π€π€
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Don't use the small faces on me. This isn't salacious.
You have broad shoulders and well-defined, symmetrical features. Large eyes. Your hair is healthy and you're well-built; you're in shape and you have solid muscle tone. Your jaw is strong. You have white, straight teeth when you smile. You're also seemingly above average in height and have good bend in your knees.
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this isβΒ wow. for a guy with a massive crush, sasuke's breakdown doesn't make it lessen that's for damn sure. jonas is sure his end of the bond is practically throbbing with the uptick in the rate his heart's pounding away at, face feeling hot. it's red, he knows it's red. he probably looks like a fucking tomato.
no one's ever complimented him this much in his life, so how does he even begin to respond?)
So like a 10.....?
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Sorry. This is really nice to read, I mean it. I just didn't know you thought all this about me, so it's def a confidence booster. Lol. u sure the fact that I have a good bend in my knees isn't salacious??
jk, hahaha.
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He feels a spike of what to him reads as anxiety through the Bond, eyes narrowing down at the text β is he embarrassed? Flattered? That's understandable enough though it makes him wonder if he hasn't crossed a line in his attempt to both be honest and to make Jonas feel a bit more self-confident. ]
I didn't say a number and you shouldn't want me to. Focus on the positives and on the negatives that you can fix.
Do you feel better now about wearing socks with sandals?
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(too dry? jonas wonders what happened to his social skills. they must've burnt up with the amount of cigarettes he's been smoking.)
It's really nice to hear, seriously. Thank you. And sorry if I got high maintenance there for a sec.
Still wanna see your drawings, though. I don't mind it being held hostage.