... well, jeez, no wonder... ("you're so strong," goes unsaid, sufficiently wowed and sure sasuke'll pick up on that.
he doesn't miss that past-tense either, thinking back to the conversation between stiles, sasuke, and him. his power level now must be well over the shinobi standard, wishing he had some sort of chart or comparison for context. the topic at hand, however, deserves more attention for now.
it's eerie to hearβnot more than finding out about the murders, but it instills in jonas the same feeling the other inmates' motley crimes at the detention centre had.)
Shinobi are like... mercs, right? Were you getting paid, or something? Why work for a guy like that?
[ Unspoken words are guessed at but they unfortunately have little pride attached to them, well aware of the opportunity that he had been given as a child. Well aware, too, of how thoroughly he'd squandered it the first chance he was given to instead latch onto a faster path. It had been necessary in order to achieve the growth he'd wanted... but at what cost?
Eyes lower, gaze pointed away from the watch as he recalls a few particularly unpleasant memories. Certainly some that paint him in an unfavorable light. ]
Because I was lost. He and I had similar goals... I wanted to attack the village I was born in, and he told me he could aid me in that. At the time I was so full of anger that I trusted him.
We don't have to talk about this now, Jonas. This is meant to be something positive between us.
jonas' fingers curl against the palm of his hand, empty. how much, exactly, did sasuke have to lose to completely give in to anger? when his mother was sick, he could barely contain it. his willpower was shot, devastated. but for sasuke to willfully allow others to manipulate him in exchange for power to attack a village he was raised in... what caused it? why did it happen?)
I trust you. That's positive. (they worked hard for this bond, the un-bonded kind jonas cherishes more than any deeper connection. he and sasuke created theirs themselves without help from an empathetic connection or outside influence, a firm foundation to build the rest on.) And so is... your trust in me. That I won't go off, have another conniption.
... you're right, both of those are. Though calling your reaction a "conniption" is perhaps a less fair characterization of events.
[ His attempt to inject any levity into his tone falls flat; his voice remains even, seemingly unaffected. And... for the first time he truly acknowledges a desire for that Bond that isn't purely practical: won't it be easier to communicate his feelings and points to Jonas in a believable way if he can feel them? ]
It's not that I trust you won't act in a way I can't control. It's that I trust that you deserve to know the truth. If you ever needed time again to deal with something I said, I wouldn't hold that against you.
That's the way it felt. You should've seen me all holed up in here. (disappointed, guilt-ridden, intimidated by the sheer scope of it all. it doesn't do to dwell on it, thinking about it too much a surefire way to get caught up in a foul mood, but no one can define another person's circumstancesβnot without hearing them outβwhen their worlds differ so greatly.
if they could speak for them, he and sasuke'd both be carrying identification around their necks. criminals, no ifs, ands, or buts.)
I'm trying to beβΒ to have more of a backbone, honestly. I'm not gonna' leave you like that again. (it was understandable, but sudden.) If either of us have to "deal" with the other, which is probably bound to happen, we can both be frustrating dudes sometimes, we'll do it face to face.
I saw how quickly you were able to improve your mood. Perhaps just resilient in the face of animals you think are injured...
[ It was unavoidable that he bring up that tiny bat incident eventually, and while it sounds like it might be a light-hearted deflection it's anything but. The fact that Jonas had shown that side to him when he was experiencing turmoil over a friend? Speaks to his strength in its own telling way. ]
But very well, Jonas. I'll stay to fight things out with you until you decide that you need a chance to think about them first, if that ever happens. As for me... there might be times when I need space as well. I don't want to make a promise yet.
(resilient? it'd be naive to assume everyone would stop to treat an animal like that, but is it tied to mood?)
I think that's a separate thing altogether, isn't it? Like, on one hand you're... disappointed, or whatever. On the other, there's something super preventable happening. They don'tβΒ what's the word... (exhaling with a purse of his lips. nope, it's gone.) I can't even think today. TheyβΒ they don't cancel each other out.
Anyway, I-I appreciate that. Honestly. And you can take whatever time you need with literally anything I can come up with that bothers you. Trust me, it'll happen. I know I may seem perfectβ (can't even finish that, cutting himself off with a lopsided smirk.) We good?
They aren't mutually exclusive is what you mean. I can understand that, but you take your positive mood for granted.
[ If he were going through something difficult, would he be able to show that kind of compassionate energy? Would he be able to show it even if he weren't? ]
Or your bad jokes. Which means that things are good between us. We'll take each day as it comes.
Should I let you get back to your lizard and homework?
(jonas wonders if that's true, if he does. but no one ever realizes that they're taking something for granted until they're told, that's why the saying exists in the first damn place. so that'd make sasuke right (there's a first for everything, a private joke as sasuke disses his aloud).)
Thanks for saying so... even if it's immediately followed up by your saltiness. Sasuke, quality wordplay requires extra thought, know what I mean? (a tap to his temple, giving him a wink.)
[ Some of us are just gifted without having to think hard. Ah yes, the gift of wit. ]
Later, then. [ He thinks to say something about Stiles for one wild moment, maybe a last recommendation to give him space, but he doesn't know that he's even on Jonas's mind. Bringing it up could just be making things worse... so instead he hangs up. ]
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he doesn't miss that past-tense either, thinking back to the conversation between stiles, sasuke, and him. his power level now must be well over the shinobi standard, wishing he had some sort of chart or comparison for context. the topic at hand, however, deserves more attention for now.
it's eerie to hearβnot more than finding out about the murders, but it instills in jonas the same feeling the other inmates' motley crimes at the detention centre had.)
Shinobi are like... mercs, right? Were you getting paid, or something? Why work for a guy like that?
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Eyes lower, gaze pointed away from the watch as he recalls a few particularly unpleasant memories. Certainly some that paint him in an unfavorable light. ]
Because I was lost. He and I had similar goals... I wanted to attack the village I was born in, and he told me he could aid me in that. At the time I was so full of anger that I trusted him.
We don't have to talk about this now, Jonas. This is meant to be something positive between us.
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jonas' fingers curl against the palm of his hand, empty. how much, exactly, did sasuke have to lose to completely give in to anger? when his mother was sick, he could barely contain it. his willpower was shot, devastated. but for sasuke to willfully allow others to manipulate him in exchange for power to attack a village he was raised in... what caused it? why did it happen?)
I trust you. That's positive. (they worked hard for this bond, the un-bonded kind jonas cherishes more than any deeper connection. he and sasuke created theirs themselves without help from an empathetic connection or outside influence, a firm foundation to build the rest on.) And so is... your trust in me. That I won't go off, have another conniption.
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[ His attempt to inject any levity into his tone falls flat; his voice remains even, seemingly unaffected. And... for the first time he truly acknowledges a desire for that Bond that isn't purely practical: won't it be easier to communicate his feelings and points to Jonas in a believable way if he can feel them? ]
It's not that I trust you won't act in a way I can't control. It's that I trust that you deserve to know the truth. If you ever needed time again to deal with something I said, I wouldn't hold that against you.
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if they could speak for them, he and sasuke'd both be carrying identification around their necks. criminals, no ifs, ands, or buts.)
I'm trying to beβΒ to have more of a backbone, honestly. I'm not gonna' leave you like that again. (it was understandable, but sudden.) If either of us have to "deal" with the other, which is probably bound to happen, we can both be frustrating dudes sometimes, we'll do it face to face.
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[ It was unavoidable that he bring up that tiny bat incident eventually, and while it sounds like it might be a light-hearted deflection it's anything but. The fact that Jonas had shown that side to him when he was experiencing turmoil over a friend? Speaks to his strength in its own telling way. ]
But very well, Jonas. I'll stay to fight things out with you until you decide that you need a chance to think about them first, if that ever happens. As for me... there might be times when I need space as well. I don't want to make a promise yet.
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I think that's a separate thing altogether, isn't it? Like, on one hand you're... disappointed, or whatever. On the other, there's something super preventable happening. They don'tβΒ what's the word... (exhaling with a purse of his lips. nope, it's gone.) I can't even think today. TheyβΒ they don't cancel each other out.
Anyway, I-I appreciate that. Honestly. And you can take whatever time you need with literally anything I can come up with that bothers you. Trust me, it'll happen. I know I may seem perfectβ (can't even finish that, cutting himself off with a lopsided smirk.) We good?
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[ If he were going through something difficult, would he be able to show that kind of compassionate energy? Would he be able to show it even if he weren't? ]
Or your bad jokes. Which means that things are good between us. We'll take each day as it comes.
Should I let you get back to your lizard and homework?
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Thanks for saying so... even if it's immediately followed up by your saltiness. Sasuke, quality wordplay requires extra thought, know what I mean? (a tap to his temple, giving him a wink.)
Talk to you later, man.
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[ Some of us are just gifted without having to think hard. Ah yes, the gift of wit. ]
Later, then. [ He thinks to say something about Stiles for one wild moment, maybe a last recommendation to give him space, but he doesn't know that he's even on Jonas's mind. Bringing it up could just be making things worse... so instead he hangs up. ]