Why would I need time to think? I asked you. I already thought about it.
Guess I'll just figure out why you're expertly dodging real answers when we bond. bc I'll apparently be a walking, talking lie detector test the moment we do. So that'll be fun to deal with when we're supposed to be celebrating. I'm sure the one presiding over the ceremony'll think that's just awesome.
Instead of going this route you could ask yourself why it is I might not volunteer the information you're not asking for directly. Do you think it's malicious? Or is it not my place to mediate your relationship? There are good reasons. If you want to hear them I'm not the person you should be talking to.
Yes, you are. Sasuke, you just tried to foist me off on someone else. Even if that someone else was Stiles, do you know how embarrassed I am right now?
bc he obviously said no.
(he expected it. knew. implied that he knew. it doesn't make it any less painful to hear.)
Now I'm like lmfao...... last choice for both of you. That's so so so brutal.
I told you this wasn't personal and you still don't understand.
You think you're my last choice? You're my first choice in a system that I want nothing to do with. You think I'm going to be happy about it? I've intentionally kept myself distant from others for years, and now I'm being asked to be more open than I've ever been. No, I don't want that. But I want you to be endangered less.
That is not a sign that I'm not thinking about what's best for you, it's the opposite.
You think I WANT to do this? That it's some cutesy thing I can throw confetti at and ??? idek. You both talk like you're the only two people with bad memories in existence.
It is personal. I don't want to be babysat. I don't want people to hold my hand through everything. I can handle more than you'll ever realize until we bond, you and me. Why don't you or Stiles ever believe in me?
(lowers his face into a hand, taking deep breaths that steady him. he needs to have patience.
he can't take back the last text he sent, so he sends another.)
I know you've been hurt. I know you've hurt others. I know I don't know half the shit you've been through, or even a quarter, or even the tiniest fraction of any of it.
But I want to take that on bc I care about you. I want to be that person.
[ His control over his own temper is something he didn't expect to be so tested in the past few days, only growing more agitated by his own perceived failings in it. As he reads that first text he feels it flare again, trying to wrangle it back under control but his own efforts do far less to achieve that goal than the follow-up text does.
Why the hell is he acting like this? Why the hell is Jonas calming down faster than he is? ]
It isn't about that. They're my memories, my emotions, and my life. It has nothing to do with weakness I see or don't see in you. You've told me what you went through. When have I said I don't believe in you? Or that this is easy for you? My actions are what's on trial, they're what I'll explain.
(lifting the iguana out of its terrarium, jonas lets it claw at his shirt to get comfortable. the professor didn't mention familiars operated a bit like service animals or therapy dogs, but he's quickly realizing its presence is a soothing balm. by no means a permanent solution, but he didn't think anyone would come around this quickly.
sasuke's likely feeling as shitty as he does about this whole thing.)
This should've been done in person lol. Like all of it. That's partially my bad. bc I never meant to rush you or corner you into a bond. If I've made you feel like that then I've really made a complete mess of this. Can I call you, or video chat or smth?
We can talk and stuff. About whatever. It doesn't even need to be about the bond. I just feel weird leaving off like this.
To leave it like this would be to open them to a more uncomfortable reconciliation later, when one isn't actually needed. They're on the same side, approaching the same solution, only one of them is further along in his acceptance of that solution than the other. He deflates, emotion coiling back inside of him as he stares at that apology. Then he calls him. ]
You didn't corner me. You don't need to think that.
(jonas knows he's made the right decision the moment sasuke's call comes in. when instead of panicking him, it feels good. despite their argument, they're both willing to let anger fizzle and talk civilly and without animosity. whatever's left of his sour mood is gone by the time he answers.
his voice is low-pitched and slightly hoarse, but level.)
... it really was such a stupid way to ask something this important, though. We can agree on that, right? (his bumbling, childish way of making a joke out of it set them up for disaster.) I should've asked you to come out to speak with me.
Maybe, [ he agrees without really agreeing, keeping his tone noncommittal and free of judgment. Whether over text or in person he can't imagine it would've gotten a better result; at least this way he was able to moderate his refusal. Not that that lasted... ]
There was no real need to stand on formality after you asked what my plans were. It made it clear what you intended to do. [ And it hits him again just what it is they're agreeing to. A pairing of magics, of souls, and an agreement to a deepened relationship. It's intimidating in a way that few things are for him, and he finds himself briefly pausing. ]
(the pause is felt, softly frowning but still listening. his attention's never been so rapt, trying to pick out the slightest inflections in his friend's voice.)
It's always... been there. Like, at the back of my mind. Everyone hinted at the troubles we'd run into if we didn't, but I never really paid attention till we all went to the outpost. (takes a measured breath, his eventual sigh quieter than the inhale.) After that, it just gradually became a thing. I spent time away from you, and Stiles was really great throughout. Kind, you know? Just, the way he's always been. Friendly, funny, and... understanding.
(and thank god, because as restless as jonas was, he'd have folded back in on himself. introverted, shyβΒ no, not shy, wary. acerbic.)
Then we met up at the Looking-Glass House. And weβΒ I had a good time with you again. Like, I know it wasn't sunshine and roses, or whatever, but we got to say things we wanted and it was just generally... good. I knew I made the right choice. You don't try to pretend you're someone you're not and you're honest with meβwhich is so rare to find. Later, Iβ (a bob of his intolerant iguana's head encourages him not to flag when he's so close to the finish line,) okay, god, this is so... I don't know.
It was just on my mind this past couple weeks, okay? I didn't feel like you were my only option, but I was... pretty shut off to the alternatives.
[ The outpost... Of course, even setting the temporary bonds aside Jonas had faced real danger out there, danger that surely would've been lessened by a permanently bonded monster at his side. Sasuke remembers well the redness of his hands, the lack of focus in his eyes. The way he'd tried to be Sasuke's friend and the way, even then, that Sasuke had rejected him.
But Stiles had picked up the slack. Been there, like he should feel he has a right to be here now, and Sasuke's grip tightens on that watch.
It takes a moment before he speaks, before he tries for an ounce of that same levity. ]
I wouldn't say he and I have always been kind to one another, but I take your meaning. It might just be you.
... I don't pretend to be someone I'm not, but I dampen my emotions like everyone else does. [ Well, that's a minimalized characterization. Being honest... ] ... more than most. It's considerable.
I'm dour and bad-tempered, so you will be forced to feel that often. I'm not trying to chase you away, I just want things known between us before we take the step. Because I also want it to be you.
You saw me. Me now, and me before. You forgave that past me and addressed this one. You don't know what that means.
(this is a serious commitment and that's been on his mind for some time, but to hear how it's affecting sasuke makes him understand why their conversation earlier got twisted up.
maybe, in time, he'll feel like he doesn't have to provide explanations for the way he experiences his emotions, or for putting them on someone who welcomes them. jonas knows he won't be ready for everything, it'd be impossible to think otherwise, but their closeness nowβthis intimate discussion separated only by distanceβmakes his jaw tighten with a willingness to try. worst case scenario, if they happen to shoulder too much too soon, they can annul.
there are options. they don't have to go this alone. they have each other.
i've got you, jonas. and youβve got me.
jonas swallows thickly against the swell of disappointment and focuses on steadying his voice. he won't let anything touch this moment, angrily defensive over it in a way he's never been. this is their time, thankful for sasuke's stolidity now... even if it's only a thin veneer.)
Yeah, you too. (murmured, eyes cast low.)
We'll take it all in stride, okay? There's gonna' be an... adjustment period for both of us, and it'll probably be a big one. But I will let you know if I get overwhelmed, or need a break. (god forbid, but jonas has to communicate that he's ready to listen if they meet any snags in their bond. that'll be crucial moving forward, as it would be in any relationship.) It can't be easy for you to say any of this... it isn't for me, either. So you can do the same, alright?
(and with all that said and done,) When would be... good for you?
(it may be immature, but he needs to practice before saying "ceremony" aloud.) We could hang soon, hash through some of the details, and... plan for after that?
[ Lips part to try to give more warnings, slap more labels on himself in preparation for this, for Jonas, not because he now wants to avoid it or thinks Jonas is incapable but because he doesn't want to disappoint him. But... he's committed. They both are, in spite of their stuttering start.
Jonas seems to struggle with his wording as much as Sasuke had and it at least makes it easier for him to accept their similarities, even if the hurdles they fall at are different β severity is Sasuke's strength, openness is Jonas's. Together? Maybe they can help one another. ]
I'm available tomorrow if you want to meet up then. I was planning to come by anyway; I have broccoli. [ Why. ] As for the ceremony itself, I can ensure that it's discreet. Too many of the people here see a need for public celebration but I don't want that. If you do... I'll only tolerate it.
(puts an arm around eddie before rising from his seat to pace a little, happier to move around the room. he likes to stay preoccupied and it helps with the overall strangeness of it all. a bonding ceremony. officiated by someone. if he brings up that that sounds suspiciously like marriage, could he make it light enough to laugh about it with sasuke?
better not chance it right now. maybe tomorrow over broccoli.)
Sorry, I meant to say that I want it to be private... this is our thing. Everyone else can stay home.
I'm pretty pumped for broccoli night, though. (first leeks, now more veggies? sasuke's already been taking care of him. it won't be some huge, unmanageable change, will it? some things won't differ at all.) If I have any questions I can ask then, right? I'll need to think of a few. Right now I'm just kinda'... taking it all in. Letting it all ruminate.
[ Maybe it says something about his own past that the marriage comparison has yet to come to him. This is an exchanging of energy, a pledge, and a solidification of friendship. Something that he'd experience with someone like Naruto. How could that ever be considered to be romantic? ]
Another mention of Jesus...
You can ask whenever you like, though it's good we have the same preferences so far. As for me... I want to know about your reservations. What I can do to ease them, if anything. If you want to wait to discuss that too, we can.
("another" mention? is he saying it too often? jonas can't remember the first time sasuke asked about it, squinting dumbly at the wall.
he'll leave sasuke to clarify, but a more important ask's been made.)
It's all good, I don't mind. I guess the main thing for me is like, sleep schedules? And what'll happen during. That'll wind up needing the most focus, but I don't want to presume. (someone with as much life experience as sasuke has to lie awake at night, he doesn't need anyone to tell him that that's the way things are. he's heardβand walked in onβa few of stiles' night terrors, so he's vaguely familiar with how little rest his friends actually get.) You mentioned memories... you don't sleep well either, right? I can, but I've had nightmares lately. Especially after the leyline.
My mood itself is pretty stable, though. I went to a lot of therapy to learn how to calm down and, uh, it's gotten easier for me to do that. I'd even consider myself a generally chill dude most of the time.
Otherwise, (here he takes a second, formulating the best way to put this,) I've never beenβΒ just being really close with someone is gonna' be hard. I've never done anything like this before, like, nothing remotely similar. I'mβΒ I'm pretty nervous about it, I guess.
"Jesus". Before, youβ well, it's been some time. You told me you weren't in the mood to explain Jesus to me, so I let it go until you were. [ Right. Because Jonas has been struggling with how to talk about Jesus for three months, and hasn't just forgotten the entire thing like a normal person. Of course. ]
The memories are something I've read become more prevalent as the bond deepens. We may not have to deal with it right away, so we can focus on the actual sleep schedules first. Usually I keep my sleep intermittent... but that's been more difficult lately. [ More due to declining health than the cycle required of vampires, but both are going to become bigger problems before they lessen. ] I can't control my dreams. But I can work with you on rest.
[ A simple, tangible goal. Easier for him to talk about than what Jonas brings up next, hesitating when he expresses a quiet unease that Sasuke himself also feels. It's comforting, at least, to not be the only one. He even opens his mouth to say as much before closing it. One step at a time. ] I understand. The best we can do right now is try to prepare each other for what we might feel or see so that there are fewer surprises.
Oh. Did I? (well that sure doesn't sound like him, but if sasuke says it's true then it must be.) I really don't mind explaining. Jesus was like a... spiritual leader and teacher, andβdepending on who you askβthe son of God. One of Earth's gods.
I went to church a lot with mom on Sundays. She was Methodist, which is a type of religion, and actually really devout. Methodists believe God was in the world as Jesus. So that's where my beliefs come from, I guess. Though, I'm less about the figures and more about the morals.
Taking his name in vain like I do all the time is considered in pretty poor taste. I still do it anyway, becauseβ
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Uh, I feel like it. My version of Jesus would be chill with it.
That all sounds good to me, (jonas starts up, undeterred by how much he's been babbling, comfortable enough with sasuke that he simply keeps on going,) and we can keep checking in on one another. I mean, we're gonna' feel when the other person's having a hard time with certain things. It'll definitely be... like, super easy to communicate.
(though he's nervous, there's an excitement in the pit of his stomach that's been sitting there like a rock. it doesn't flit around like a bunch of uneasy butterflies, just bides its time and waits for the right time to make his teeth chatter with a strange output of adrenaline. not today, nerves. not today.)
I feel better about everything... after talking to you. I know I sound like a broken record, but... thanks, man.
[ He listens patiently to a description he has trouble piecing together, picking up individual details that seem to refuse to mesh together in any kind of cohesive manner. ]
Then... God is the name of a god. [ First of all, highly creative. But this is the religion of Jonas's mother and in some respects, of Jonas himself. He's not here to mock it, just to understand it. ] And Jesus is the name of his son who was possessed by the spirit of his father. Later, I'll listen to more of what you have to say about his teachings.
For now... you have nothing to thank me for, but you're welcome. It's good that you brought this up as early as you did.
I'm accustomed to pushing myself to my limits, but this time it runs a greater risk. For me, for you... for Stiles. For all of those around us. And without remembering that I might have let things go too far. You're the one I should thank. [ It was Jonas who made himself vulnerable first, after all, and Sasuke and Stiles who were too reluctant to do the same. How can a person like that be a bad choice for a bond? ]
... that breakdown makes it sound about as weird as it is, so, yeah. Preeetty much. (maybe god just wanted to live vicariously through his son, like a hockey mom. god, the hockey mom.) Some of it's overly complicated. I like the simple bits and try to live by them. Keyword "try."
(the third and eighth protestant commandments are very, very difficult for him to remember.)
You're usually so set in your ways, I didn't know whether or not you'd come around. I... kinda'... panic-adopted an iguana because of it. Which makes me honestly glad you took time to consider things. Rushing yourself's never a good idea either.
[ "I'm not set in my ways", he thinks to counter, but there's something far more pressing to address than his own advanced denial and other myriad issues. ]
An iguana. [ More than religion, more than a chance for him to self-reflect and upend his entire life, his focus settles here. ]
(chuckles into the receiver, before crossing to his bed to lay the iguana down on his comforter.)
I'll do you one better. (the only warning before video's flicked on to show jonas checking the camera with a vacant look that clears the moment he's sure it's connected. he doesn't do too many of these, surprisingly, offering a parting salute to the watch before the world spins to reveal the lizard in all his glory.
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Guess I'll just figure out why you're expertly dodging real answers when we bond. bc I'll apparently be a walking, talking lie detector test the moment we do. So that'll be fun to deal with when we're supposed to be celebrating. I'm sure the one presiding over the ceremony'll think that's just awesome.
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bc he obviously said no.
(he expected it. knew. implied that he knew. it doesn't make it any less painful to hear.)
Now I'm like lmfao...... last choice for both of you. That's so so so brutal.
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You think you're my last choice? You're my first choice in a system that I want nothing to do with. You think I'm going to be happy about it? I've intentionally kept myself distant from others for years, and now I'm being asked to be more open than I've ever been. No, I don't want that. But I want you to be endangered less.
That is not a sign that I'm not thinking about what's best for you, it's the opposite.
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It is personal. I don't want to be babysat. I don't want people to hold my hand through everything. I can handle more than you'll ever realize until we bond, you and me. Why don't you or Stiles ever believe in me?
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he can't take back the last text he sent, so he sends another.)
I know you've been hurt. I know you've hurt others. I know I don't know half the shit you've been through, or even a quarter, or even the tiniest fraction of any of it.
But I want to take that on bc I care about you. I want to be that person.
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Why the hell is he acting like this? Why the hell is Jonas calming down faster than he is? ]
It isn't about that. They're my memories, my emotions, and my life. It has nothing to do with weakness I see or don't see in you. You've told me what you went through. When have I said I don't believe in you? Or that this is easy for you? My actions are what's on trial, they're what I'll explain.
I'll be ready for the ceremony whenever you are.
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(lifting the iguana out of its terrarium, jonas lets it claw at his shirt to get comfortable. the professor didn't mention familiars operated a bit like service animals or therapy dogs, but he's quickly realizing its presence is a soothing balm. by no means a permanent solution, but he didn't think anyone would come around this quickly.
sasuke's likely feeling as shitty as he does about this whole thing.)
This should've been done in person lol. Like all of it. That's partially my bad. bc I never meant to rush you or corner you into a bond. If I've made you feel like that then I've really made a complete mess of this. Can I call you, or video chat or smth?
We can talk and stuff. About whatever. It doesn't even need to be about the bond. I just feel weird leaving off like this.
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To leave it like this would be to open them to a more uncomfortable reconciliation later, when one isn't actually needed. They're on the same side, approaching the same solution, only one of them is further along in his acceptance of that solution than the other. He deflates, emotion coiling back inside of him as he stares at that apology. Then he calls him. ]
You didn't corner me. You don't need to think that.
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his voice is low-pitched and slightly hoarse, but level.)
... it really was such a stupid way to ask something this important, though. We can agree on that, right? (his bumbling, childish way of making a joke out of it set them up for disaster.) I should've asked you to come out to speak with me.
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There was no real need to stand on formality after you asked what my plans were. It made it clear what you intended to do. [ And it hits him again just what it is they're agreeing to. A pairing of magics, of souls, and an agreement to a deepened relationship. It's intimidating in a way that few things are for him, and he finds himself briefly pausing. ]
... when did you decide you were going to ask?
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It's always... been there. Like, at the back of my mind. Everyone hinted at the troubles we'd run into if we didn't, but I never really paid attention till we all went to the outpost. (takes a measured breath, his eventual sigh quieter than the inhale.) After that, it just gradually became a thing. I spent time away from you, and Stiles was really great throughout. Kind, you know? Just, the way he's always been. Friendly, funny, and... understanding.
(and thank god, because as restless as jonas was, he'd have folded back in on himself. introverted, shyβΒ no, not shy, wary. acerbic.)
Then we met up at the Looking-Glass House. And weβΒ I had a good time with you again. Like, I know it wasn't sunshine and roses, or whatever, but we got to say things we wanted and it was just generally... good. I knew I made the right choice. You don't try to pretend you're someone you're not and you're honest with meβwhich is so rare to find. Later, Iβ (a bob of his intolerant iguana's head encourages him not to flag when he's so close to the finish line,) okay, god, this is so... I don't know.
It was just on my mind this past couple weeks, okay? I didn't feel like you were my only option, but I was... pretty shut off to the alternatives.
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But Stiles had picked up the slack. Been there, like he should feel he has a right to be here now, and Sasuke's grip tightens on that watch.
It takes a moment before he speaks, before he tries for an ounce of that same levity. ]
I wouldn't say he and I have always been kind to one another, but I take your meaning. It might just be you.
... I don't pretend to be someone I'm not, but I dampen my emotions like everyone else does. [ Well, that's a minimalized characterization. Being honest... ] ... more than most. It's considerable.
I'm dour and bad-tempered, so you will be forced to feel that often. I'm not trying to chase you away, I just want things known between us before we take the step. Because I also want it to be you.
You saw me. Me now, and me before. You forgave that past me and addressed this one. You don't know what that means.
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maybe, in time, he'll feel like he doesn't have to provide explanations for the way he experiences his emotions, or for putting them on someone who welcomes them. jonas knows he won't be ready for everything, it'd be impossible to think otherwise, but their closeness nowβthis intimate discussion separated only by distanceβmakes his jaw tighten with a willingness to try. worst case scenario, if they happen to shoulder too much too soon, they can annul.
there are options. they don't have to go this alone. they have each other.
i've got you, jonas. and youβve got me.
jonas swallows thickly against the swell of disappointment and focuses on steadying his voice. he won't let anything touch this moment, angrily defensive over it in a way he's never been. this is their time, thankful for sasuke's stolidity now... even if it's only a thin veneer.)
Yeah, you too. (murmured, eyes cast low.)
We'll take it all in stride, okay? There's gonna' be an... adjustment period for both of us, and it'll probably be a big one. But I will let you know if I get overwhelmed, or need a break. (god forbid, but jonas has to communicate that he's ready to listen if they meet any snags in their bond. that'll be crucial moving forward, as it would be in any relationship.) It can't be easy for you to say any of this... it isn't for me, either. So you can do the same, alright?
(and with all that said and done,) When would be... good for you?
(it may be immature, but he needs to practice before saying "ceremony" aloud.) We could hang soon, hash through some of the details, and... plan for after that?
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Jonas seems to struggle with his wording as much as Sasuke had and it at least makes it easier for him to accept their similarities, even if the hurdles they fall at are different β severity is Sasuke's strength, openness is Jonas's. Together? Maybe they can help one another. ]
I'm available tomorrow if you want to meet up then. I was planning to come by anyway; I have broccoli. [ Why. ] As for the ceremony itself, I can ensure that it's discreet. Too many of the people here see a need for public celebration but I don't want that. If you do... I'll only tolerate it.
Do you have any questions for me now, Jonas?
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...
(puts an arm around eddie before rising from his seat to pace a little, happier to move around the room. he likes to stay preoccupied and it helps with the overall strangeness of it all. a bonding ceremony. officiated by someone. if he brings up that that sounds suspiciously like marriage, could he make it light enough to laugh about it with sasuke?
better not chance it right now. maybe tomorrow over broccoli.)
Sorry, I meant to say that I want it to be private... this is our thing. Everyone else can stay home.
I'm pretty pumped for broccoli night, though. (first leeks, now more veggies? sasuke's already been taking care of him. it won't be some huge, unmanageable change, will it? some things won't differ at all.) If I have any questions I can ask then, right? I'll need to think of a few. Right now I'm just kinda'... taking it all in. Letting it all ruminate.
How 'bout you?
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Another mention of Jesus...
You can ask whenever you like, though it's good we have the same preferences so far. As for me... I want to know about your reservations. What I can do to ease them, if anything. If you want to wait to discuss that too, we can.
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("another" mention? is he saying it too often? jonas can't remember the first time sasuke asked about it, squinting dumbly at the wall.
he'll leave sasuke to clarify, but a more important ask's been made.)
It's all good, I don't mind. I guess the main thing for me is like, sleep schedules? And what'll happen during. That'll wind up needing the most focus, but I don't want to presume. (someone with as much life experience as sasuke has to lie awake at night, he doesn't need anyone to tell him that that's the way things are. he's heardβand walked in onβa few of stiles' night terrors, so he's vaguely familiar with how little rest his friends actually get.) You mentioned memories... you don't sleep well either, right? I can, but I've had nightmares lately. Especially after the leyline.
My mood itself is pretty stable, though. I went to a lot of therapy to learn how to calm down and, uh, it's gotten easier for me to do that. I'd even consider myself a generally chill dude most of the time.
Otherwise, (here he takes a second, formulating the best way to put this,) I've never beenβΒ just being really close with someone is gonna' be hard. I've never done anything like this before, like, nothing remotely similar. I'mβΒ I'm pretty nervous about it, I guess.
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The memories are something I've read become more prevalent as the bond deepens. We may not have to deal with it right away, so we can focus on the actual sleep schedules first. Usually I keep my sleep intermittent... but that's been more difficult lately. [ More due to declining health than the cycle required of vampires, but both are going to become bigger problems before they lessen. ] I can't control my dreams. But I can work with you on rest.
[ A simple, tangible goal. Easier for him to talk about than what Jonas brings up next, hesitating when he expresses a quiet unease that Sasuke himself also feels. It's comforting, at least, to not be the only one. He even opens his mouth to say as much before closing it. One step at a time. ] I understand. The best we can do right now is try to prepare each other for what we might feel or see so that there are fewer surprises.
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I went to church a lot with mom on Sundays. She was Methodist, which is a type of religion, and actually really devout. Methodists believe God was in the world as Jesus. So that's where my beliefs come from, I guess. Though, I'm less about the figures and more about the morals.
Taking his name in vain like I do all the time is considered in pretty poor taste. I still do it anyway, becauseβ
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Uh, I feel like it. My version of Jesus would be chill with it.
(fucking shrugs on the other end of the call.)
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Where was I going with any of this?
That all sounds good to me, (jonas starts up, undeterred by how much he's been babbling, comfortable enough with sasuke that he simply keeps on going,) and we can keep checking in on one another. I mean, we're gonna' feel when the other person's having a hard time with certain things. It'll definitely be... like, super easy to communicate.
(though he's nervous, there's an excitement in the pit of his stomach that's been sitting there like a rock. it doesn't flit around like a bunch of uneasy butterflies, just bides its time and waits for the right time to make his teeth chatter with a strange output of adrenaline. not today, nerves. not today.)
I feel better about everything... after talking to you. I know I sound like a broken record, but... thanks, man.
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Then... God is the name of a god. [ First of all, highly creative. But this is the religion of Jonas's mother and in some respects, of Jonas himself. He's not here to mock it, just to understand it. ] And Jesus is the name of his son who was possessed by the spirit of his father. Later, I'll listen to more of what you have to say about his teachings.
For now... you have nothing to thank me for, but you're welcome. It's good that you brought this up as early as you did.
I'm accustomed to pushing myself to my limits, but this time it runs a greater risk. For me, for you... for Stiles. For all of those around us. And without remembering that I might have let things go too far. You're the one I should thank. [ It was Jonas who made himself vulnerable first, after all, and Sasuke and Stiles who were too reluctant to do the same. How can a person like that be a bad choice for a bond? ]
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(the third and eighth protestant commandments are very, very difficult for him to remember.)
You're usually so set in your ways, I didn't know whether or not you'd come around. I... kinda'... panic-adopted an iguana because of it. Which makes me honestly glad you took time to consider things. Rushing yourself's never a good idea either.
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An iguana. [ More than religion, more than a chance for him to self-reflect and upend his entire life, his focus settles here. ]
... a picture. Can you send me one?
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(chuckles into the receiver, before crossing to his bed to lay the iguana down on his comforter.)
I'll do you one better. (the only warning before video's flicked on to show jonas checking the camera with a vacant look that clears the moment he's sure it's connected. he doesn't do too many of these, surprisingly, offering a parting salute to the watch before the world spins to reveal the lizard in all his glory.
a very standard iguana at a healthy weight.)
This is Eddie.
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